The Hesabika Mentorship Program has been God’s timely gift to me for this year. As the year began, my world seemed so dark and confused. I had gone through a difficult and tough break up that left me with more questions than answers. As I sat down to listen to Dr. Richard Mutura take us through the first lecture, all I wanted was to learn and to try and understand God.
The truth was that God felt very distant at that moment in my life.
However, I was now learning to develop a biblical mindset, to see life through His lenses. I was allowing God to renew my mind when it comes to my worldview on marriage.
I was understanding the problem of pain and getting to appreciate pain as a gift. Yes, you read it right, pain as a gift.
I read my Bible more often because I truly wanted to view the world through God’s lenses in relation to all aspects of life. It was so comforting to learn that in my suffering I was being made more into the image of God’s Son and it gave me courage to surrender my life to God yet again.
“Even though Jesus was God’s Son, he learned obedience from the things he suffered.” Hebrews 5:8 NIV.
So, I lost significant weight in the past year and no – it was not related to the break up. If anything, when I am stressed, I eat a lot. Food is therapeutic for me… haha… c’mon now; I know I am not alone! I digress. “I liked you better when you were curvy, I think you look horrible right now. Please don’t lose any more weight.”
As I listened to those words said to me by someone so dear, they cut deep, they stung. My core being was affected. I could feel it. What held me together?
A Christ-centered identity.
I resolved to amplify God’s voice in the midst of different voices screaming at me in a noisy world and to have His Word direct my life. Psalm 139:13-14 it is!
“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.” (NLT)
In the midst of so many voices, it is easy to fall prey to what every other person is saying about you and to believe it to be true. The lessons from our program’s curriculum have been wonderful. I am currently studying the book of Ephesians and it is such a breath of fresh air to be reminded of who I am in Christ.
In cementing my identity in Christ and in finding clarity of God’s call over my life, I cannot wait to see what God has in store for the remaining months of the program.
As He leads, I will follow. Soli Deo Gloria.
This post has been written by Racheal Wambui, a member of the 2019 Cohort, Hesabika Mentorship Program